Theme party #1 - Downton Abbey

I’m not exactly a party animal.  My four housemates and I are usually in for the night by like 6:30.  It’s rare to find us watching a movie (on a weekend, duh!) without a pile of grading on someone’s lap…or a few someones.  Our house is more like a nunnery than a sorority.  And most of the time, that’s really OK with me. 

However, it’s been a fun surprise to get into hosting theme parties together.  We’ve hosted two in the last several months.  The first was in honor of (most of) our favorite show, Downton Abbey, a BBC period drama set in England during the 1910s-1920s.  Michaela, Annalisa and I have been watching it all year on our black-market DVDs.  ($1.50 a disk, no bargaining necessary.)  Michaela went ahead and watched the Season 3 Christmas special on TV while home in Scotland, and she warned us that it was a bit of a downer.  We decided we needed to end our Downton drama habit on a high note, in good company.  Plus, we needed to take advantage of the paper dolls Michaela had stumbled across online. 

My favorite paper doll because all her expressions are THE SAME!

I printed out the paper dolls and added some other characters so we could invent and perform a sequel to the Christmas special: “Holiday in Cambodia.”  I did a bit more digging online and discovered a “name that Downton character” quiz game, which I turned into a team activity.  I also took some classic Dowager Countess quotations and transformed them into a fill-in-the-blank competition with three levels of difficulty.  (Can you tell I’m a teacher?)  The quiz questions and answers are below if you'd like to see them.

A bunch of us Logos ladies met at a local restaurant that has a private room with a projector.  (Good thing I’m not the only Downton nerd in town.)  We ended up not using the paper dolls, but we DID have a lot of fun with the games and just hanging out together.  Since we’re in Cambodia, there were technical difficulties with the projector.  So we returned to my house to watch the long-awaited Christmas special.  It’s true, it’s a bit of a downer.  But we didn’t let it get to us – laughter and fun dominated the evening!

Click on "Read more" if you'd like to see the quiz game.

Beauty in the mess

Both are there.  Which one am I looking at?

Why live in Cambodia?

My friend Mindy wrote this for her church in Canada.  I'm learning a lot from her and her husband Lyle's example of embracing Khmer people and culture with gusto.  She says a lot of wise things: some that are true for me, and some that I hope to grow into.

So, why are we living and serving in Cambodia?

Is it because white people are the saviours of the developing world?

Is it because we have ‘so much to offer’ a nation recovering from genocide and war?

Is it because we want to share Christ with people who have never heard the gospel?

Honestly, one of the biggest reasons that we live in Cambodia is that we like it here. 

I have prayed this prayer for nearly my whole life: “Jesus, may the joys of my heart meet the needs of Your world.” For me, Cambodia is the place where my joy intersects with the needs of God’s world. I recognize this as a gift of grace, because many acknowledge that Cambodia is a difficult place to live. Of course there are daily challenges, like the unrelenting heat, not to mention the unending corruption and injustice. But for Lyle and me, cross-cultural living energizes and excites us. Learning to love the people of this nation has drawn our hearts closer to the heart of God.

My dad often marvels at the openness Cambodians have towards us. He says, “When I think about cross-cultural missions, I think about how I’d feel if someone came up to me speaking bad English, and THEN tried to share a foreign worldview or religion with me. I don’t know how open I’d be to that!” For better or for worse, most Cambodians are open to foreigners, especially Western ones. They patiently laugh when I make language mistakes, and strangers constantly invite me to sit down in their homes. (Admittedly, most of that is probably because I have a cute baby, not because I’m a foreigner.) I am well aware that my face and upbringing bear the marks of “rich privileged white person”. I am aware of what this has meant around the world throughout history – from colonialization to financial hand-outs to local churches looking a bit too much like American megachurches.

So we always try to start by listening to our friends and hearing their stories, long before we try to implement programs or save the world.

I think one of the reasons that I love Cambodia so much is that I didn’t hear its stories by reading books or listening to jaded expats talk about Cambodia. Rather, Cambodians told me about Cambodia. And I didn’t hear a single story of one demographic of Cambodians. I am close friends with middle-class university students, high class officials, moms in the slums, garment factory workers, ex-monks, radio DJs, and people who survived the worst of the Pol Pot regime. The stories I’ve heard are both heartbreaking and hopeful.

I believe in cross-cultural ministry because something very heaven-like happens when this mutual sharing of humanity occurs. We all need a ‘prophetic outsider’ to both listen to us process our world, but also to provide a different perspective and speak into some of our cultural blind spots. In Canada, my life was changed forever by my college roommate who happened to be a Korean ‘outsider’. My prayer is that I can be this ‘prophetic outsider’ for my Cambodian friends. It’s the things that we share in common – raising kids, going to work, living as spiritual beings with hopes and fears – that allow us to connect. From this connection, there is so much joy in learning about and sharing our differences, including our language, food, wealth, and faith.

Having said that, there are very practical and urgent needs here, and we work for an organization that does a really good job of addressing the needs of poverty, education, empowerment of locals, and sharing the gospel. (www.asianhope.org) But you know as well as I do that there are needs all over the world. My prayer is that the joys of YOUR heart will meet the needs of God’s world.

So thankful

In March, I posted about going to Samrach's new house with some people from church to help him and his siblings paint the house.  We went back a couple weeks ago to do the next coat (the first time was just primer), and he and his sister Sakhey just e-mailed this to all of us.  

Dear all,

we just let all of you know, we so thankful God through all of you, that helped  us to have a beautiful new house and painted the wall with beautiful color.

.now we can protect the raining,

.no mouse run around inside our house anymore and mouse can not bite us again while we is sleeping,

.it is enough space for sleeping,

.it is no flood to come up on the floor.

. it protect from the big wind.

................................

we don't know how can we share about our heart ,and how much can we tell about our feeling to you  that we are really exciting with the great miracle, great mercy,great love ,great blessing  from God to have a new house through all of you.

 Shalom,

 Samrach & Sakhey.

This e-mail made me grin.  Their English is cute. (Not to mention a million times better than my written Khmer.)  Their statements are heartwarming.  And it was a happy reminder of a happy time spent with them and their family.

But once I got over all my condescension, I felt convicted.  Grammar notwithstanding, their infectious joy is unmistakable.  So many families near my house and school can't say any of these things about their houses.  In a storm last week, many homes near school had roofs or even walls blown off, and were majorly flooded.  At my house, I've never worried about being awakened by bites from the friendly kitchen shrews and scampering attic rats. Strong walls protect us from the elements.  I have a spacious room to myself and even a bathtub, for crying out loud. I overlook the blessings they describe and so many more. 

So today I want to take time to share in their delight in this "great blessing from God:" a home.  Lord, let me thank you as passionately as Somrach and Sakhey for daily evidence of Your great miracles, mercy, and love in my life.

Fernweh

My 9th graders are working on Multi-Genre projects, where they address one topic (soccer, the future, rebellion, sleep) through many genres of communication. One person might have a collage, a short story, a persuasive essay, and a movie review, for example, all related to one central topic.

This Cambodian student's poem is part of her project on Fernweh (German, literally "farsickness"), the opposite of Heimweh ("homesickness"). Fernweh is similar to Wanderlust: the longing to venture to distant places, the ache for the faraway.  

I love how her poem drops me into another world and another heart. She wrote it completely independently, with no input from me. This class has some incredible writers!

You don't know where the feeling comes from,

or when it actually begins to stir in the pits

of your stomach and eventually overtakes your body

and your previous thoughts. It makes you numb with

emotions, but somehow you know precisely

what you were doing before it happened.

Time is slow; so slow, that you swear you can feel

the plates of the earth shifting, and hear the blood rushing

through your veins, and you're sure you've memorized every

chip and crook and cranny on the "antique" table you're

sitting at. You stare out the window, and the lazy

evening sunlight beams down on you, and you can

feel the rays growing weaker, and you suddenly realize that

the way the city lights begin to blink on, one by one, are like an

animal's eyes in the dusk, and the bustle of the city is quieter

than you would've wanted it to be, and suddenly you don't

quite know how to feel.

You know that you feel, quite suddenly, that this

apartment room is suddenly smaller than before, and the walls

are seemingly pressing in on you. Suddenly, you long

to be away from this small town, with the all too familiar faces

and the same bakery shop that has been there for

longer than your mom has been alive, and the supermarket that

everyone seems to go to, because there's nowhere

else to go - and you want to be on the other side of the world,

walking the streets that have been worn down with the feet

of millions of pedestrians that have scurried past

every day. You want to be where the city never sleeps,

sitting in a hushed room and listening to a cellist play; and thriving

in a sea of anonymity, falling in love with the glorious sights

and the wafting smells from a Mexican restaurant.

You long for a place you've never been to, a place

where you've only seen on a few postcards, and in your

own imagination. It is a kind of longing that strangely keeps

you going, that motivates you to finish school and continue

with your fine-just-fine life, until you will finally be able to

break free from this routine.

Suorsdey chnam thmey!

That’s Khmer for “Happy Khmer New Year!”

A neighbor's New Year's offerings, a few years back

Today’s the first of three days in this mid-April holiday, when farmers celebrate the end of harvest and the imminent arrival of rainy season.  (This year, the rains have started early – it’s pouring outside as I write.)  Phnom Penh is a ghost town this week, since most people have gone back to their home villages to celebrate with relatives.  I'm savoring the hush and the wide-open streets.  For some people, like my friend Srey Pos, this is the only time all year that they’ll return.  Everybody wants to buy a new set of clothing to show off in their village.  They enjoy traditional games, songs, and foods.  Most people also participate in religious ceremonies honoring Buddha, ancestors, and other spirits.

At the hotel my parents and I visited last year in Siem Reap

I found this fantastic New Year 2013 song on YouTube. In it, you can observe typical elements of Khmer life and culture, such as…

This style of music – the sound is typical of songs played at weddings, in karaoke videos, and other sources of popular entertainment.

Melodramatic slapstick humor.

Wooden houses on stilts: this is true of almost every house in rural areas, while in the city most homes are made of concrete, but even my next-door neighbor and several families near Logos have houses like this.  The blue trim around the windows and door is also typical.

Guys sitting around drinking beer.

The low bamboo structure that the guys are sitting on.  People use those to prepare and eat food, hang out with visitors, and often sleep on.  They're often located under the houses.

The krama, a checkered scarf worn around people’s heads.  (It's quite versatile: hat, bandana, scarf, man skirt, bag...I've even seen one suspending a baby between bicycle handlebars.)

Fruit and incense being offered to ancestors and other spirits.  (This happens all the time, but especially during the New Year.)

Traditional long skirts, made from colorful sarong material.

Dancing that consists mostly of simple steps (in a circle or in place) while twisting your wrists around.  Note the lack of physical contact.

Guys flirting with girls who reject their advances, or at least pretend to.  

Livestock wandering around...though I don't tend to see pigs where I am, only cows and chickens.

I'm probably missing more...what else stands out to you?

Obviously the song and the holiday celebrate tradition, and some people in the capitol are more cosmopolitan and "modern."  But most of the video is still quite normal in everyday Cambodian life, including for the average Phnom Penh resident.   (With the possible exception of throwing sticks at livestock.)  Despite the ubiquity of TV, electric guitars, and cell phones, most aspects of Cambodian culture have remained constant over several hundred years.  

Playtime

My ears perked up when I heard “barang” – white person.  My 8-year-old neighbor with curly locks was talking about me to my landlord’s niece.  “I want her to play too!” 

I shot a look at my landlord’s niece, then asked the little girl, “Play what?”  Not that I expected to understand the answer.  Even if I recognized the title – and I didn’t – I’d already been  watching my landlord’s niece scream and run around while little neighbor kids threw baby powder at her.  Was this a real game or just their own invention?  Was there a way to win and stop being chased?  How long would it continue?  Why tonight of all nights, when I was exhausted and the humidity was near 100%?  All I wanted was to go inside, shower off, and unwind with a book.

Then suddenly, I took off running.

Every evening lately, as I’ve turned onto my street coming home from school, I’ve asked myself, “Do I feel like talking?”  Srey Pos has been living with us for over a year now, in my landlord’s house that adjoins ours.  She’s their 17-year-old niece and the one who opens the gate each evening for me, eager to talk after sitting with the guard dog in front of our house all day.  Her job is to keep people from breaking in, and presumably to clean and cook a bit for the landlord’s family.  But since the landlord and his wife have been staying out till 8:30 or 9 PM for an English course, Srey Pos has all kinds of time between my return (5:30 or 6) and theirs.  Sometimes I come home with a lot to do, or just can’t think of anything to say to her.  And some nights, to be perfectly honest, I’m just not willing to spend energy making conversation.  But I try to reserve a few minutes to linger and chat more often than not.

In a sense, having her around is perfect for me.  I love practicing Khmer but don’t get to use it that much at school, and she’s eager to decipher all my mangled sentences.  The trouble is, while she’s good at understanding me, I often don’t understand her responses.  I’ve heard that her province has a pretty thick accent, but some of the variations in her speech almost sound like speech impediments to me: ex. changing “r” to “h.”  When her grandma visited, I noticed that the grandmother was easier to understand.  Given my limited Khmer proficiency and the great number of Khmer vowels that only vary slightly, I need some context to figure out that “chwa” means “swy” (mango) or “bhua” means “braw” (boy).  Plus, she doesn’t really rephrase, slow down, or use gestures: if I tell her I’m confused, she just repeats the same thing at the same speed.  My comprehension has improved as I’ve figured out a couple of sound shift patterns and key words, but it’s still tough going.

Regardless of how much I understand, I’m glad to get to know her more.  It’s great for me to build a relationship with someone who’s not fluent in English or comfortable in Western culture, like my other Khmer friends.  And I feel for her – it has to be so lonely living here by herself.  She’s not close with the landlords, and worries about getting in trouble with them for various reasons.  They may be relatives, but it’s not a warm, fuzzy relationship.  For those reasons, my Filipina roommate Ethel and I have been reaching out to her – Ethel probably a lot more often than me, even though Ethel is new this year and knows about 4 words in Khmer.  Ethel uses a hilarious combination of gestures, dramatically intoned English phrases, and those four Khmer words to communicate better than I’d expect, with questions as complex as “Are your aunt and uncle sleeping here tonight?” 

Srey Pos keeps saying she wants to learn English, which I’ve never tried to teach her, but Ethel’s taken her up on it.  I hear them outside sometimes: “Girl…boy…ABC…”  Personally I think she needs to start back at the basics.  She still can’t remember “What’s your name,” which nearly every kid in Phnom Penh has down pat by age 6.  Besides "hello" and "OK," I think “bowl” is the only word she’s really mastered.  (I found out tonight that she now calls Ethel "Bong Bowl" - "Bong" shows respect and means "older sister.")

She's always eager to spend time with us.  She once asked if she could come over and help me finish my Christmas cookies.  Though she didn’t care for the taste of peanut butter and chocolate, she was a huge help at mixing and forming the cookies.  She always comes over to ask for help with her broken phone charger or her cell phone stuck on a weird setting from pushing one too many buttons.  She also asks us often to borrow our phones so she can call her village, since she’s always running out of credit.  (Like many Cambodians, she probably buys it $1 at a time, which expires after a week.)  For a while, Srey Pos was often jumping rope with her 9-year-old cousin, and had a blast whenever we jumped in for a while. 

Ethel and I occasionally go for evening walks, and that’s Srey Pos’s new favorite.  She goes on Ethel’s bike up and down the street, circling around us while we walk.  Once when I went with just her, she actually walked alongside me, headphones blasting Khmer love songs from her cell phone.  Friday night when I got home from dinner with a friend, she asked if we could go on another walk.  I reluctantly agreed, knowing how tired I was and how sweat had drenched my shirt at least 3 times that day, once during each brief bike ride.  I figured a walk could be peaceful and I knew she'd appreciate it.

But the minute we got outside, little neighbor kids were swarming us, trying to throw baby powder at her.  She told me she’d already changed outfits three times from all the baby powder thrown earlier in the day.  They zipped around us on bicycles, with the kid in front driving and the one on the back tossing clouds of fragrant white dust toward her.  Srey Pos alternately shrieked, ran away, and grabbed me as her human shield.  They were afraid to get it on me, but she got pretty well-covered.

After we progressed about a block during 10 minutes of these shenanigans, she turned around and took me back to the house, and the little kids desisted.  But when we got back to the gate, she started talking with the one little girl, who asked if I could play.  Play what?  I am so not in the mood for this.  I had already felt relieved to be done with our “walk” – it had been a long week and a long day.  I was about to say no and head to the front door, when a voice inside me said, Oh well, why not?

The little girl with one of the biker boys.  I wish I knew their names, but I can never remember - their building has a lot of kids.

I turned and sprinted toward the bike with two boys on it, making them giggle and shriek.  What was I supposed to do?  Run away, but let them catch me every now and then?  I supposed I could handle that for a few minutes.  So I ran and shrieked till the baby powder ran out and the kids went home.

Running hard and laughing hard felt really good.  It reminded me of other exuberant nights with friends in youth group, my campers, my younger siblings.  Yeah, my shirt got soaked through yet again.  No, I didn’t have time to read once I’d showered – I just collapsed into bed.  No, I didn’t mind getting home too late to join in their antics the next night. 

But I almost missed out on a magic moment, and I’m so glad I didn’t.