When I assigned it a few years ago, I did the project alongside my students to give them an example. Revisiting it this month, it brought back some sweet memories, and so I've decided to post it here. Hopefully I can get students' permission to post a few excerpts from theirs as well soon.
Here's my story about my dad's influence on me:
Cake and Community
“Do some things that surprise
you.” My dad’s words echoed in my
brain as I turned from my parents and walked through security to board the
plane to Germany. I was twenty-one years
old and on my way to Europe, alone, for the summer. After 9 years of German courses, I was pretty
sure I had the language skills I needed to make it on my own there. I was less convinced about other skills –
hadn’t a major housing problem come up just days earlier?
My dad gave me the courage to brave this solo trip. He’s always loved meeting internationals and
learning their stories, fearlessly diving into new cultures, experiencing
something surprising and different. I
was mortified the time he went up to strangers at IHOP: “Are you Russian? I could tell by your lime-green shoes.” (They were indeed – not Russian, but
Ukrainian.) We even lived in Germany for
his job when I was a baby, and my parents’ passion for German became mine too
as I grew older.
Though I’m naturally shy and careful, my dad has always pushed me to
take risks. When I was young, he made me
call my friends to invite them over myself, even though I was quite
self-conscious on the phone. He once
took me and my little sister to an amusement park, where I found one or two
safer roller coasters I liked. He took
her on the one that went upside-down and backwards, talking it up until I felt
left out and decided to join them. I
loved it!
In college, he insisted I work as a waitress to gain confidence in
handling stress and talking with strangers.
He’s the one who encouraged me to design my own trip in place of the
expensive and easy Penn State summer programs, using his and my mom’s European
connections so I could immerse myself in German language and culture. “Don’t stress about planning every detail,”
he told me. “You’ll figure it out.” Now, here I was over the Atlantic Ocean,
hoping he was right.
I started with three weeks in
idyllic Innsbruck, Austria, where my mom had once spent four years. It was my second visit there, and I felt
instantly at home in the close-knit community of my mom’s old friends and their
children, attending church with them and volunteering at a local school. I longed to stay and pretend I was one of
them, and yet I felt called to the unknown that awaited me in Germany.
Flat, drab, lifeless. Even the
thunderstorms were subdued. Those were
my first impressions in Neufahrn, the tiny suburb of Munich where I was staying
and working for the next two months. I
could walk in any direction and hit cornfields within five minutes.
I was working for my dad’s engineering company, staying in a guesthouse
for employees visiting from other branches, and later taking a German
course. But the guest house was 1 hour
and a $20 subway ride from downtown, ruining my plan to find exciting cultural
activities and Christian community. I
was the only girl and the youngest one at the guest house. The men there were stressed from long working
days and too tired to socialize, so everyone retreated into their rooms
immediately upon returning home from work.
At work, assignments were monotonous and sparse.
Forget community. Wherever I
went – work, home, around town – I felt utterly alone. How would I learn German if I didn’t even
know anyone to talk to?
“Do some things that surprise
you.” I was going crazy in the
silence, and I couldn’t give up on my dreams for an amazing summer. If there was a way to create community in
this stiflingly isolated village, I was going to find it.
The answer began in baking, a favorite passion of mine. I hunted down the ingredients for yellow cake
at the grocery store. When I couldn’t
find a cake pan, I used the frying pan instead, praying the handle wouldn’t
melt in the oven. I hesitantly knocked
at my housemates’ rooms: “Would you like some cake? It’s American, so it might be sweeter than
you’re used to.” One of them, who most
intimidated me, nearly fell over in shock.
That one piece of cake broke through his reserve. He became much warmer toward me, showing me
photos of his daughters and initiating more cooking experiments.
There was a frail white-haired woman across the street on her porch
most evenings, who smiled and said hello as I walked or jogged by. I’d almost given up on meeting her for real,
when she noticed my accent one day and asked where I was from. I found myself sitting in her living room
with thick, deep red carpet and flowery chairs, listening to her stories about
farm life before World War II and her confidence in God’s goodness even as
cancer was consuming her body.
I’d heard about a Christian student group in Munich, and I made the
trek downtown to their meeting, knowing no one in the room but starting
conversations anyway. I remember them
commenting, “Wow, you seem so outgoing.”
If only they’d known me ten years earlier, too shy to call and invite my
best friend over. I guess my dad’s
effervescent personality had rubbed off on me more than I thought – at least to
make me good at faking it! I found
myself agreeing to go on a boating trip with them the next Saturday, though I
was terrified of looking like an idiot.
Later I joined them at the movies, a carnival, and a Euro Cup party.
When I got stuck in a useless German class, I wanted to let it go and
hope the course improved. But, with my dad’s voice in my ears, I boldly spoke
to the teacher about it. I gained
permission to move up a level, where I found both mental stimulation and
intriguing, friendly classmates.
I didn’t expect to carry the weight
of initiating 100% of my friendships in Germany. It was hard, as the newcomer and the
non-native speaker, to make the first move and welcome people into a community
of my own making. But in a sense, my dad
had spent years training me for that summer.
Each time he embarrassed me with another international, he was showing
me, “Sometimes it’s better to look foolish than to stay isolated.” Sometimes it pays to break the status quo, to
take risks, because they bring a richness to life. I surprised myself that summer, but looking
back, I think it was a natural result of becoming my father’s daughter.
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