Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Memoirs - My Dad's Story

My World Lit classes (grades 11-12) wrote memoirs this month - one reflecting on an adult's influence in their lives, and another based on an interview with that adult. It's my second time assigning this project, and both times I've been fascinated by the stories that have emerged from it.

When I assigned it a few years ago, I did the project alongside my students to give them an example. Revisiting it this month, it brought back some sweet memories, and so I've decided to post it here. Hopefully I can get students' permission to post a few excerpts from theirs as well soon.

Here's my dad's story, based on interviewing him about a topic related to my own story. I wrote in his voice, so "I" actually means my dad.


Feel Free to Invite Us Over

She thought I’d get over it. 

My mom wasn’t crazy about me spending a college summer break in Ecuador.  Wouldn’t it make more sense to pursue an engineering internship like my friends?  With only a year till graduation, it was time to build connections with high-paying companies. 

But my heart lay elsewhere.  My faith had been growing the past few years, and I wanted to act on it by telling others about Christ.  I was also hungry for adventure: I’d never left the country before, and I wanted to see something different. 

You’d think my mom would understand my passion – after all, she’d majored in romance languages and dreamed of working for the UN as a translator.  Still, Ecuador made her nervous.  She hoped this would be enough of a taste to satisfy my curiosity in time to start a “real job” and make decent money.

                On my team of five US college students, I was the only one with no Spanish skills – just a few years’ worth of high school German.  Let me tell you, I spoke a lot of German to those Ecuadorians!  Every night, in a little church in the big city of Guayaquil, I taught the most advanced groups of English students.   Students knew that along with grammar and vocabulary, they were signing up to discuss the gospel message.  In one of my courses, we even used the Bible as our textbook: full of verb tense examples and new vocabulary, but also deep philosophical questions.

                A week into our trip, the director came and made an announcement that Americans would find offensive.  “We want to get to know you,” she told students, “so feel free to invite us over to your homes.”  And they did!  There was a rule that we couldn’t go alone, so I visited many students’ homes with other teammates.  We’d spend hours with them, in English or Spanish depending on their ability, and at some point we’d usually present the gospel. 

Our hosts ranged from working-class to quite wealthy.  Their hospitality varied accordingly, but usually included a sweet snack and Coke.  Boy, did those Ecuadorians love their soft drinks!  Those were safer, though, than the drinks people made us with fresh fruit and local tap water.  So tasty...and yet resulting in so much discomfort.

One time, instead of the usual store-bought cake or cookies, a woman served us something unfamiliar. 

“What’s this?” 

“How you say in Eeen-glees?   Cow een-test-teen.” 

I shouldn’t have asked!  Whatever it was, we always accepted it gratefully and hoped for the best.  Their hospitality was so sincere and sometimes overwhelmingly gracious.   

                I made it work without really knowing much Spanish, and yet it was sometimes pretty frustrating.  At those students’ homes where they couldn’t speak much English, I was basically helpless.  Reading was easier: I could figure out most signs by the time I left.  Sometimes we’d visit churches with big youth groups, and the teens would come and try to talk with us.  I’d ask a teammate to translate for me and a local, but the local would end up just chatting with the teammate, while I was left out.  I enjoyed practicing the language, and I picked up a lot that summer, though not enough to follow their more rapid conversations. 

                On weekends, exotic destinations beckoned, like a river trip to view local wildlife, or a village deep in the Andes Mountains where villagers hand-crafted rocking chairs from leather and carved wood.  I took one back to the US and kept it for the next twenty years! In those mountains, a missionary kid named Philip took us hiking.  He tried to scare us with his wild driving through the Andes, careening around corners and nearly flying off the road.  It didn’t work – we weren’t fazed – but looking back, it’s probably because we were just as dumb as he was.  Those mountain roads were awful, and a few times, he lost control and lurched to a stop in the nick of time. 

                There was plenty to see right in Guayaquil, too.  Iguanas would come up out of the river into our backyard.  I can still hear the egg man coming down the street with his sing-song call: “Huevos!  Hueeee-vos!” Other days, it would be the rattle of the trash collector pushing a barrel on wheels.  He’d separate our heaps into bags: salvageable, food, just plain trash. 

Going across town was an adventure in itself.  Those buses looked pregnant: they’d take an old bus where the middle had rotted out, then build a replacement middle, twice as big, out of wood or metal.  I’d be crammed into the belly of the bus with dozens of others, nervously watching for pickpockets slicing open my pocket so my wallet would fall out.  Good thing my mom couldn’t see me on the bus. I would have been on the next flight home!

                One time, we visited Calle 25, a poor district where homes were on stilts over a swamp.  I was going door-to-door to announce an evangelistic film that night.  I noticed a woman carrying a baby on her back, like a papoose, and struggling to carry a large barrel.  In my broken Spanish, I asked if I could help, and she nodded.  I ended up carrying it a few blocks to where she was going, then used every ounce of my language skills to tell her about the movie.  “Tonight – come to movie – hear about Jesus – please.”  That night, she came and found me there.  Beaming, she touched me on the shoulder and said, “Thank you for what you did.  You helped me and I wanted to come see your movie.”  I was really touched. 

                 I got what I wished for that summer: adventure, a new language, telling people about Jesus.  I’m not sure if my mom got her wish.  On the one hand, I went back and graduated in engineering and got a good job.  On the other hand, I stayed interested in missions and overseas travel long afterward.  Whether it was smuggling Bibles into Communist Hungary a few years later, or attending engineering conferences in Japan and China decades afterward, my desire to dive into new cultures just kept growing.  Though I never went overseas long-term, my summer in Ecuador gave me an addictive glimpse of our amazing world.  

Memoirs - My Story

My World Lit classes (grades 11-12) wrote memoirs this month - one reflecting on an adult's influence in their lives, and another based on an interview with that adult. It's my second time assigning this project, and both times I've been fascinated by the stories that have emerged from it.

When I assigned it a few years ago, I did the project alongside my students to give them an example. Revisiting it this month, it brought back some sweet memories, and so I've decided to post it here. Hopefully I can get students' permission to post a few excerpts from theirs as well soon.

Here's my story about my dad's influence on me:


Cake and Community


“Do some things that surprise you.”  My dad’s words echoed in my brain as I turned from my parents and walked through security to board the plane to Germany.  I was twenty-one years old and on my way to Europe, alone, for the summer.  After 9 years of German courses, I was pretty sure I had the language skills I needed to make it on my own there.  I was less convinced about other skills – hadn’t a major housing problem come up just days earlier? 
My dad gave me the courage to brave this solo trip.  He’s always loved meeting internationals and learning their stories, fearlessly diving into new cultures, experiencing something surprising and different.  I was mortified the time he went up to strangers at IHOP: “Are you Russian?  I could tell by your lime-green shoes.”  (They were indeed – not Russian, but Ukrainian.)  We even lived in Germany for his job when I was a baby, and my parents’ passion for German became mine too as I grew older. 
Though I’m naturally shy and careful, my dad has always pushed me to take risks.  When I was young, he made me call my friends to invite them over myself, even though I was quite self-conscious on the phone.  He once took me and my little sister to an amusement park, where I found one or two safer roller coasters I liked.  He took her on the one that went upside-down and backwards, talking it up until I felt left out and decided to join them.  I loved it! 
In college, he insisted I work as a waitress to gain confidence in handling stress and talking with strangers.  He’s the one who encouraged me to design my own trip in place of the expensive and easy Penn State summer programs, using his and my mom’s European connections so I could immerse myself in German language and culture.  “Don’t stress about planning every detail,” he told me.  “You’ll figure it out.”  Now, here I was over the Atlantic Ocean, hoping he was right. 
                I started with three weeks in idyllic Innsbruck, Austria, where my mom had once spent four years.  It was my second visit there, and I felt instantly at home in the close-knit community of my mom’s old friends and their children, attending church with them and volunteering at a local school.  I longed to stay and pretend I was one of them, and yet I felt called to the unknown that awaited me in Germany. 
Flat, drab, lifeless.  Even the thunderstorms were subdued.  Those were my first impressions in Neufahrn, the tiny suburb of Munich where I was staying and working for the next two months.  I could walk in any direction and hit cornfields within five minutes. 
I was working for my dad’s engineering company, staying in a guesthouse for employees visiting from other branches, and later taking a German course.  But the guest house was 1 hour and a $20 subway ride from downtown, ruining my plan to find exciting cultural activities and Christian community.  I was the only girl and the youngest one at the guest house.  The men there were stressed from long working days and too tired to socialize, so everyone retreated into their rooms immediately upon returning home from work.  At work, assignments were monotonous and sparse. 
Forget community.  Wherever I went – work, home, around town – I felt utterly alone.  How would I learn German if I didn’t even know anyone to talk to?
“Do some things that surprise you.”  I was going crazy in the silence, and I couldn’t give up on my dreams for an amazing summer.  If there was a way to create community in this stiflingly isolated village, I was going to find it. 
The answer began in baking, a favorite passion of mine.  I hunted down the ingredients for yellow cake at the grocery store.  When I couldn’t find a cake pan, I used the frying pan instead, praying the handle wouldn’t melt in the oven.  I hesitantly knocked at my housemates’ rooms: “Would you like some cake?  It’s American, so it might be sweeter than you’re used to.”  One of them, who most intimidated me, nearly fell over in shock.  That one piece of cake broke through his reserve.  He became much warmer toward me, showing me photos of his daughters and initiating more cooking experiments. 
There was a frail white-haired woman across the street on her porch most evenings, who smiled and said hello as I walked or jogged by.  I’d almost given up on meeting her for real, when she noticed my accent one day and asked where I was from.  I found myself sitting in her living room with thick, deep red carpet and flowery chairs, listening to her stories about farm life before World War II and her confidence in God’s goodness even as cancer was consuming her body. 
I’d heard about a Christian student group in Munich, and I made the trek downtown to their meeting, knowing no one in the room but starting conversations anyway.  I remember them commenting, “Wow, you seem so outgoing.”  If only they’d known me ten years earlier, too shy to call and invite my best friend over.  I guess my dad’s effervescent personality had rubbed off on me more than I thought – at least to make me good at faking it!  I found myself agreeing to go on a boating trip with them the next Saturday, though I was terrified of looking like an idiot.  Later I joined them at the movies, a carnival, and a Euro Cup party.
When I got stuck in a useless German class, I wanted to let it go and hope the course improved. But, with my dad’s voice in my ears, I boldly spoke to the teacher about it.  I gained permission to move up a level, where I found both mental stimulation and intriguing, friendly classmates. 
                I didn’t expect to carry the weight of initiating 100% of my friendships in Germany.  It was hard, as the newcomer and the non-native speaker, to make the first move and welcome people into a community of my own making.  But in a sense, my dad had spent years training me for that summer.  Each time he embarrassed me with another international, he was showing me, “Sometimes it’s better to look foolish than to stay isolated.”  Sometimes it pays to break the status quo, to take risks, because they bring a richness to life.  I surprised myself that summer, but looking back, I think it was a natural result of becoming my father’s daughter.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Cambodian life hacks I might not need next year

Over the past six years in Cambodia, I've acquired certain skills and knowledge that have served me well here. I may never be a "real" Cambodian, but I'm a lot more Cambodian than I used to be! I've found ways around all sorts of dilemmas - sometimes adapting common Cambodian practices, sometimes problem-solving with friends or on my own.

Now, as I contemplate returning to the US this summer for grad school, I'm realizing that some of these brilliant solutions, even the most deeply engrained, might seem a bit less brilliant there. And I don't just mean the driving techniques.

1. The rug wipe.
Why it works here: 
Every local market carries stacks of 50-cent rugs made of cotton scraps. My house has about 20 of them, mostly to cut down on tracking dirt around. They're far from beautiful, but they slide nicely to the nearest spill, dry quickly, and wash well. 
Why it might not transfer: 
I got dirty looks from my mom and my best friend last summer when I suggested using a rug instead of a paper towel. That's a piece of home decor, silly, not a floor rag. (Though "rug" and "rag" are awfully similar words, aren't they? Just sayin'.)

2. The curtain rod ribbon.
Why it works here: 
My curtain rod was screwed into a flimsy plywood frame that has nearly disintegrated, leaving the rod flopping down in January. Unlike the side, where the screw was, the frame's top is still relatively intact, but there's a gap between it and the wall. Instead of borrowing a drill and trying to screw it into the concrete wall, it was easier to tie a ribbon around the rod and frame.
Why it might not transfer: 
As I recall, curtain rods are usually screwed into the drywall in US homes. Hopefully my walls won't be losing chunks, nor would a ribbon do much to help!

3. The purse storage.
When driving my moto, I keep my purse in my backpack or in a plastic bag on the hook by my feet.
Why it works here: 
The best way to guard against would-be purse-snatchers is to keep valuables secure and/or out of sight. They're not tempted to grab my sturdy backpack like they're tempted to yank my purse until the strap rips or I fall off my moto. A plastic bag looks much less valuable and hangs more securely on the hook, preventing thieves from swooping by atop a friend's moto and snatching it away.
Why it might not transfer: 
It seems a little tacky to carry your purse in a plastic bag. Also, it's hard to snatch a purse through a car window.


4. The door wire.
To secure the front door, we use a very classy green-and-yellow wire. 
Why it works here:
Our front door doesn't latch, so our options are to padlock it (if all of us are either in or out) or to leave it ajar. We're on a safe street with a gated courtyard, but if our vicious watchdogs are stretching their legs outside their cage, odds are the ajar door will lead to unwelcome puddles or piles of trash on our floor. The best solution is to tie a wire through the padlock holes so that people can open it from either side.
Why it might not transfer: 
Padlocks aren't very common in the US. Doors that latch - or landlords that fix doors that don't latch - ARE rather common.

5. The 100's ditch.
Always seize opportunities to eliminate hundred bills from your wallet.
Why it works here:
Cambodia is a very cash-based society that uses 2 currencies interchangeably: US dollars and Cambodian riel. $100 USD is a common denomination at ATM's, but not many stores and vendors can change such a large bill. 100 riel is worth 2.5 cents, and much like pennies, they quickly accumulate without adding much value. So I look for chances to use my $100 bills for rent, or to break them at the grocery store or the money-changing stall at the market. 100 riel bills? I pay exact when I can.
Why it might not transfer: 
America has these newfangled things called checkbooks. Oh, what's that, you use cards now? Hmm. I predict my wallet will be sleeker next year. (Plus I'll be broke from grad school.)

6. The water bottle finder.
Why it works here: 
Feel dehydrated while running errands? Just look for a big orange cooler on the sidewalk outside a shop. There should be one within a 1-minute drive, whether you're downtown or in a village. You can choose between the 12-cent bottle, the 25-cent "name brand" bottle, and the 60-cent 1-liter bottle.
Why it might not transfer: 
The US tends to cool things using electricity, not ice coolers, and bottled water is pricier. Also, you can find water fountains more places, and tap water is drinkable everywhere, so you can refill the water bottle you brought from home. As my friend Megan puts it, "Americans flush their TOILETS with drinking water, for crying out loud!" I know some Americans still buy bottled water on a regular basis, but I don't really understand it.

The view from my balcony - I could probably count 100+ today

7. The mango freeze.
Why it works here:
At the peak of mango season, you might be given 20 mangoes in a week, if you don't have your own mango tree (just one can bear hundreds of beautiful mangoes). But even if your taste buds wanted to take on the challenge, your stomach might not be up for it. Nothing is sadder than a perfectly ripened mango turning to mush because you were on the BRAT diet for a few days. (OK, a lot of things are sadder. I think of this as a classic "First World Person in the Third World" problem.) So you cut them up and freeze them. Presto! A tasty, healthy, Hot Season Survival treat.
Why it might not transfer: 
Remember the last time you had an over-abundance of perfectly ripened mangoes? That you'd paid less than 50 cents a pound for? Yeah, that's what I was afraid of. And THAT'S the reason I'm trying to eat enough mangoes this spring to last me the next two years.

8. The ant-proof bowls.
To prevent ants from descending upon anything remotely edible, simply place the feet of your tables and portable cabinets inside bowls filled with water or baking soda.
Why it works here: 
There are a LOT of ants. They are super-speedy and always hungry. The ant bowls can't deter all of them, but they're certainly the first line of defense.
Variation: have a yummy treat that won't be eaten for a few hours? Fill a tray with water, then put a bowl on the tray, and set the treat on top. They can't get to it!
Why it might not transfer: 
The US doesn't usually use portable cabinets, let alone the kind of "ant cabinets" whose doors are also meant to block out tiny intruders. Yet when did you last find critters in your crackers? My Logos friend Emily was incredulous to attend a AP grading conference in a US hotel that left dozens of bowls of unwrapped candy out overnight. Every morning, the candy was untouched. Mind blown.


9. The cereal freeze.
Have ants infested your cereal? Just toss it in the freezer and pick out their carcasses in about 30 minutes.
Why it works here:
You can use the ant bowls, the ant cabinet, the Tupperware container, AND the Ziplock bag, all together. But one day, those ants will find their way in. (I understand the Biblical proverb about 'Go to the ant, you sluggard' so much better since moving here!) Sometimes it's not worth the trouble and you just throw out the nearly-empty bag of sugar. But when you splurged and bought your favorite cereal, or when your family sent you real chocolate chips, or when you don't have time to bake another batch of those muffins, you do whatever it takes to salvage what's left. Or you just freeze it from the get-go, to remove all risks. Freezers hold a lot of funny things here.
Why it might not transfer: 
See #8.

Yes, the women's dressing room is down Aisle 5 and on your right...
10. The portable dressing room.
Why it works here: 
Trying on clothes at the market can be an awkward procedure. They might let you step inside their stall, and it's even possible they can hold up a meter of fabric to guard you from the eyes of passersby. But there's no guarantee. If you're wearing shorts/leggings and a tank top under your outfit, you'll be ready to switch outfits without scandalizing anyone.
Forgot to wear your "dressing room"? See if your vendor can lend you a sarong for a moment.
Why it might not transfer: 
Next time you're standing in line at the Kohl's dressing room and think, "Forget this! I'm wearing spandex and a camisole! I'll just change right here!", let me know how many new friends you make.

11. The mask.
Why it works here:
Thick clouds of fumes. Grains of sand kicked up by passing cars. Wood finish being sprayed over doors and chairs from a side-of-the-road workshop in the direction of traffic. Dust cyclones on dirt roads in dry season. There are many things that one can inhale while en route, and yet the only one you really WANT in your lungs is oxygen. So sometimes you do what you gotta do. 
*Too lazy? Forgot your mask? Or it's still not cutting it? The simplest answer: Just stop breathing! Warning: Use sparingly, for short periods of time... like when that delivery truck in front of you is accelerating.*
Why it might not transfer: 
Two answers...
1. Emissions laws
2. Enclosed vehicles

12. The TV spatula.
Why it works here: 
Outlets tend to be about chest-high here, located with the light switches. (To keep them safe from flooding? Or to save on wires?) They're also loose enough to fit many types of plugs, since unlike nearly every other country, Cambodia doesn't have a standard plug shape. These two factors converge to make it easy for cords to slip out and come unplugged. So sometimes, they need a bit of encouragement.
Why it might not transfer: 
I don't know. Maybe I SHOULD have a spatula devoted to keeping my electronics safely plugged in, just in case.

This whole "moving" thing is going to be not only a learning curve, but also an "un-learning" curve. (If you see me using a life hack that I should've left in Cambodia, feel free to gently suggest an alternative.) But life hacks are fun to learn, and there are plenty of new ones that I might need to try next year.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

The Starlight Night: a poem

Every now and then, I like doing a project alongside my students. In AP Literature, I decided to join them for a paired poem project. Each of us chose an author with a pair of thematically related poems. We had to recite one poem from memory, creatively portray the other poem, and write an essay interpreting and evaluating them both. The essay outline is due next week so I haven't started that part yet, but I've really had fun with the first two steps.

I chose Gerard Manley Hopkins, whose work I first discovered while teaching British Literature. He's a 19th-century Victorian poet known for his creative and even obscure language, vivid descriptions of nature, unusual rhythms, and passion for his Catholic faith. I love his exuberance - I feel like he grabs my hand, dashing along with me to show me something that he finds marvelous.

The poem I recited is called "Hurrahing in Harvest," which I liked enough to post on my blog back in 2010, but never fully understood. Memorizing it really helped! One of my students told me, "My poem didn't make sense the first five times I read it." I agree. I think good poetry is like that - it demands multiple sittings (and possibly a good dictionary), engaging our emotions and intellects before it spills its secrets. 

When I went back and read more of his poems for this project, I was also drawn to a new one:

"The Starlight Night"


Look at the stars! look, look up at the skies!

    O look at all the fire-folk sitting in the air!
    The bright boroughs, the circle-citadels there!
Down in deep woods the diamond delves! the elves'-eyes!
The grey lawns cold where gold, where quickgold lies!
    Wind-beat *whitebeam! airy *abeles set on a flare!
    Flake-doves sent floating forth at a barnyard scare!
Ah well! it is all a purchase, all is a prize.

Buy then! bid then! - What? - Prayer, patience, alms, vows.

Look, look: a May-mess, like on orchard boughs!
    Look! March-bloom, like on mealed-with-yellow *sallows!
These are indeed the barn; withindoors house
The *shocks. This piece-bright *paling shuts the spouse
    Christ home, Christ and his mother and all his hallows.

*whitebeam, abele, and sallow = types of trees; shocks = sheaves of grain; paling = fence


We had other creative options that I would usually find more comfortable, like performing the poem as a song or writing a short story based on the poem. But the visual imagery in "Starlight Night" seemed to dare me to draw it, even though some lines baffled me. Now I'm glad I took on the challenge. Here's how I ended up portraying it:





















Friday, February 27, 2015

Transition resolutions

I’m moving back to the US in June, after nearly 6 years in Cambodia. I’m hoping I can return to Cambodia in a few years after getting a master’s degree, but the truth is that life is uncertain. So I’m trying to wrap my head around the end of life as I’ve known it since mid-2009 (more or less since graduating college).

I’ve heard a lot of tips on transitioning back “home” to your passport country. You can’t enter well unless you leave well, advises one book. My roommate says no matter how well you prepare and how solidly you build your RAFT (Reconciliation, Affirmation, Farewells, and Thinking destination), transitions are just inherently painful and messy. Another friend says it’s OK not to leave well… you do what you can, but nobody’s keeping score or evaluating you on it.

Last weekend, when I sat down to journal about my transition, I wasn’t sure what would spill out. It ended up looking like this:

When I look back on this time, a year from now… or 5 or 10… what do I want to remember? What will it take to have no regrets about my last few months here?

I want to say NO to people-pleasing and YES to people.

I want to say NO to perfectionism and YES to excellent teaching.

I want to say NO to rigid over-planning and YES to intentionality.

I want to say NO to fearing life there and YES to savoring life here.

I want to say NO to exhausting myself and YES to seizing opportunities.

I want to say NO to working “for” God and YES to participating in God’s work.

I want to say NO to legalism and YES to intimacy with God.

I want to say NO to expecting only beauty and joy, and YES to gratitude for beauty and joy.

I want to say NO to apathy and YES to peace.

I want to say NO to showing off false spirituality and YES to surrender and obedience to God.

Lord, you are the vine; I’m just a branch. I need to live connected to You, or I can’t even survive, let alone bear fruit. Please help me abide in You during my last few months here, and into whatever’s next. Please be my joy, my peace, my strength, my wisdom, my vision. Help me to trust You and to live each day here as an act of worship, a token of my gratitude to You. Thank You that though I have no idea what’s ahead – I have no guarantee even of my next heartbeat – You wrote out all my days before time began.

John 15:5,9 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing… As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.”

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Tum and Teav: Cambodia's Romeo and Juliet

Yesterday, my tutor Neakru Roth was away visiting her hometown for the 15th anniversary of her grandpa’s death. In Cambodia death anniversaries are important; there are ceremonies for day 7, day 100, and certain years after the death. Another tutor, Neakru Reaksmy, subbed for her. She told me we’d be studying Khmer culture: attitudes toward romance and marriage. We started by discussing various hypothetical situations, mostly related to parents’ roles in choosing a spouse. She says she’s old-fashioned – though arranged marriages are uncommon, she’d be fine with her parents choosing her future husband, and she’d break up with any guy they didn’t like.

What if your parents weren’t Christian, I asked? What if they chose a guy based on money or family reputation, even though he wasn’t trustworthy? What if you saw a friend following her parents’ advice to marry a bad man? It wasn’t very hypothetical. I know a lot of Cambodian girls whose parents have essentially told them, “You’re being too picky and getting old. Why not marry this guy?” Family reputation, salary, and respect for elders are often emphasized over traits like fidelity, respect for the wife, and willingness to share in household chores. One friend’s parents actually recommended her first cousin, though she turned him down. Reaksmy seemed OK with much more parental influence than I would be, saying that parents are usually wise and loving, and that people’s short-lived emotions often lead them to choose a spouse they regret. She made some great points, but I still think I’d be terrified to let a typical Cambodian couple choose my husband, or even my friend’s husband.

Next, she told me a famous story called “Tum and Teav”. This classic story of tragic love is a crucial part of the high school exam, according to Reaksmy and another tutor, and it reminded me a lot of Romeo and Juliet. She told me roughly the version below, which I’ve condensed from Wikipedia:


While traveling to sell bamboo rice containers for his pagoda, Tum, a talented Buddhist monk, falls in love with Teav, a beautiful young lady who is drawn to his beautiful singing voice. Tum is consumed with longing for Teav and soon returns to her village. Though the head monk asks him to wait a few weeks, he immediately defrocks himself to pursue Teav. He initially spends some time in Teav's home despite her being 'in the shade' (a period of a few weeks when the daughter is supposedly secluded from males and taught how to behave virtuously). After professing their love for one another, Tum and Teav sleep together. Soon afterward, he is recruited by King Rama to sing at the royal palace, and he leaves Teav once again. 

Teav's mother is unaware of her daughter's love for the young monk, and agrees to marry her daughter off to the son of their powerful governor, Archoun. Her plans are interrupted, however, when emissaries of King Rama—equally impressed by Teav's beauty—insist that she marry the Cambodian king instead. Archoun agrees to cancel his son's wedding arrangement, and Teav is brought to the palace. Tum boldly sings a song that professes his love for her. Rama overcomes his initial anger and agrees to let the young couple marry.
When Teav's mother learns of her daughter's marriage, she feigns illness to lure Teav back to her village, then coerces her into marrying Archoun's son. Teav writes to Tum, who arrives with an edict from the king to stop the ceremony. Tum gets drunk, announces he is Teav's husband and kisses her in public. Enraged, Archoun commands his guards to kill Tum, and they beat him to death. Grief-stricken, Teav slits her own throat and collapses on Tum's body. When King Rama hears of the murder, he descends upon Archoun's palace, ignores the governor's pleas for mercy, and orders Archoun's entire family—including seven generations worth of relatives—be taken to a field and buried to their necks. An iron plow and harrow are then used to decapitate them all.

After the story, my hour lesson was over, but Reaksmy asked if I wanted to stay and watch the movie. It turns out she was on her way with a bunch of other tutors to Roth's grandpa's ceremony, so she had a couple hours to hang out there. She eagerly looked it up on YouTube for me, and since we didn't have speakers (and I didn't have two spare hours), she clicked through and showed me all the characters and the story highlights. Especially the graphic deaths at the end, where characters were covered in orangish-red blood. The other tutors were excited to recognize the movie and chimed in about what a great story it was. I was encouraged to watch it at home, and I hope to... but probably in small chunks.
I know Romeo and Juliet pretty well, having taught it in English 9 the past 5 years. So it was easy to compare and contrast them a bit.
Difference: standards of physical affection. 
In Romeo and Juliet, the couple kisses literally at first sight, before learning each other's names, and their choice isn't exactly condemned, though they're in a public ball where they could be seen. More kisses follow. In Tum and Teav, the couple is faulted for kissing in public after they're married. That's definitely a Cambodian value that continues today. PDA? Not OK.
Let's kiss a few more times before I introduce myself.
Similarity: convoluted storyline. 
I'd love to chalk this up to Khmer culture's love for cheesy melodrama, but Romeo and Juliet is just as bad. 
Difference: sense of justice.
The prince of Verona vows to execute anyone who continues the family feud between Capulet and Montague, but has mercy on Romeo for killing Tybalt since Tybalt was equally at fault, and decides only to banish Romeo. At the end, upon discovering their bodies and Paris, the prince declares, "All are punished!" for their feud, and does not further condemn the families for their contribution to the violence. By contrast, King Rama violently executes seven generations of relatives (including infants) of the governor who ignores his edict to stop Teav's remarriage. That, even though the governor doesn't see the king's letter until after Tum and Teav die. One Western scholar calls the king's disproportionate revenge "a head for an eye" and sees it as a cultural model for the Khmer Rouge atrocities.
The bloodthirsty king is shown on the right. 
Similarity: impulsive acts of passion.
Like Romeo and Juliet, Tum and Teav are young and act on infatuation and lust. Both couples shroud their marriage in secrecy, knowing it would never be accepted, and go to great lengths to be together. In both, the girl commits suicide upon discovering her dead husband.
Difference: moral of the story. One year when I taught Romeo and Juliet, we did a court case to determine who was at fault. Fate? The young lovers? Their families? Friar Lawrence? The play isn't quite clear, and evidence exists for all four causes. All the characters rush and make faulty assumptions, yet Shakespeare also suggests they were "star-crossed" from the first. In Tum and Teav, at first I thought it was at least partly the greedy mother lying and forcing her daughter to deny true love and marry for status. Perhaps also the king, ruthlessly slaughtering innocent people. How American of me! (To be fair, my tutor left out some of Tum's transgressions, like rushing out of monkhood and sleeping with Teav.) 
It turns out that Tum and Teav are considered most to blame in the story. Their defiance of various authorities - the head monk for Tum and the mother in Teav's case - in order to pursue their own selfish desires brings about their deaths. In fact, most schools teach this as a simple lesson in karma: do bad things, bad things will happen. (Some Buddhist interpretations do blame the mother's greed and manipulation. Not sure about the king and the governor, but usually kingship = a pass to do whatever you want.) Reaksmy and another tutor, Kinal, told me that as far as Cambodian values, Tum and Teav are a case study in "what not to do." They're basically the bad guys who deserve what they get.
Afterward, I was thinking about how Romeo and Juliet translates into modern-day Western culture. The answer is not very well. We're so individualistic and equality-based, not deferring to hierarchy and community like Cambodians (or even like medieval Italians). I think there's a reason my tutors love Tum Teav while my Logos students find Romeo and Juliet cheesy and unrealistic. In Cambodia, it's easy to imagine this story happening today. 

Saturday, January 17, 2015

The Ballad of Amy Uecker

A collaborative song written by housemates Meagan Stolk, Annalisa Benner, and Chelsea Cooper. Meagan also wrote a great post on the symbolic importance of our household repairs.

Amy and her Khmer friend Mr. Ra spent four hours last Saturday translating, problem-solving, buying parts, and repairing things all over our house. Mr. Ra and an assistant returned the next day for another four hours. Can you say "dedication"? 

We thought it was impossible
To solve our household woes.
Our landlords couldn’t find the time,
So we just let it go.

The toilets were all broken,
The sinks, they were a mess.
The lights, they just refused to shine,
Increasing all our stress.

But suddenly hope sprung again.
A rumor grew and grew
That fixing our house could be done -
Someone knew what to do.

‘Twas the fearless Amy Uecker,
With her trusty *jieng named Ra.
She climbed upon the ladder
And shouted out, “Ta-da!

"I’ve made the lights all work again!
They shine as bright as day.
And don’t you worry, my dear friends,
The sinks now drain away.”

Dear Mr. Ra worked tirelessly
On each and every task.
A simple flush now did the job
Better than we had asked.

And so we three were filled with joy
From our head down to our toes,
For Amy and her fix-it friend
Had solved our household woes.

*jieng = "handyman" in Khmer